Musings

Living with Autism can lead to a lifetime of trauma induced by interactions with fellow human beings. Because our brains are different, we perceive and react differently. Our “weird” or different than “normal” (i.e., neurotypical -“NT”) behaviors tend to bring on a lot of undeserved persecution. Our outside of the box approach often makes NT people uncomfortable. So they make fun of, disparage, outright hate, and try to control those of us who are neurodivergent – “ND”. This collection of writing, in the form of blogs, vignettes, poems and articles is from my own personal experiences dealing with autism, persecution and the resulting alcoholism and (later) diagnosis and acceptance of my neurodivergence and subsequent recovery from everything (alcoholism, depression, anxiety and more).

Some of that is still in progress – so my writing often captures recovery and the emotions and trials that go with it right in the moment. Some of the material here, I pulled from letters to friends and/or my ongoing log of Facebook posts that I used as a personal log while fighting the need to drink – it can get pretty raw. I knew my path to recovery wasn’t typical, but I also knew it was right for me, and so I wanted to document it for myself, for my family and for others who find the dominant treatment systems and methods of recovery don’t work for them.